in your hands

was it me or was it you?
neither of us seem to know for sure
i just never thought i'd leave.

you're pushing me away, one foot out the door
the other one in your mouth
but in spite of all things, there is no turning back.

it all came crashing down on me
but you weren't there to hold me up
how did my heart feel crumbling in your hands?
the life in me's fading now-- it's too late.

i never claimed to be strong
but you always expected it from me.
you didn't know how much you were asking.

sometimes the pain takes over
and i know you'll yell if i cry
so i close my eyes and shut you out.


it all comes crashing down.